Yea... so for some reason I've been kinda down lately... some songs to describe how i feel....

"Predictable"

Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doin everything I should've
And now I'm makin a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable)
Everyone that I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable)
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now..

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams Lyrics

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!

So yesterday was the end of the marching band season.  Now I have absolutly nothing to do with my time.  I feel so empty with out flag corps.  During the season we had three practices a night and a show usually once every two weeks.  Now we are done, and I'm sad.  It was such a cool, new experience.  At the beginning it was hard and tiring.  I wasn't used to all the work.  As it progressed, though, it got better.  Band camp was an incredible time.  We worked so hard, but still managed to constantly have fun.  During band camp came the birth of new sayings.  Does "salt or pepper" mean anything to you?  You probably only think of condiments, but to the people that were at band camp with me, it means something completely different.  Also with band camp came new friends, and it made other friendships stronger.  I felt feelings there that I didn't even knew I had.  After school started, we had regular Tuesday night practices with the full band.  Then we added Wednsday night practices.  After we added that, we added our Thursday night practices.  All of the practices were at least 2 hours long.  It was so time consuming, but I knew what I had to do.  Some practices were great, others not so much.  We had a practice on my birthday, and that was one of the worst.  It was cold, windy, and I was sick.  I got through it though.  Just like I got through everything with only minor scrapes and bruises.  Our final show wasn't our best, but it was good enough to get a gold rating.  I cannot wait until winter gaurd starts, but it won't be as good as when marching band starts again next summer.

I'm staying.  Screw live journal.

ERRRR!!!!  last night was our first night marching the show during halftime at a football game.  During the 3rd song we change our flags.  Well MRs. Norton gave shelly my purple flag!  so when it was time to change flags... shelly had mine and i didnt have one.  so i had to go through the end of the song with the wrong colored flag!!!  Plus, at the start of the show... my scroll was rolled wrong and i kept dropping one side bc of the way it was rolled.  ALso, our posts that we set our scrolls on were in the wrong spots!!! besides all that it was actually a pretty good show.  The football team lost 28-14 though..... poor them.

talking about flag corps----

Sam says:

why did u join it

Yes, I'm afraid the flagits are multiplying¤Kåîtl¥ñ¤ says:

i dont really know anymore

Yes, I'm afraid the flagits are multiplying¤Kåîtl¥ñ¤ says:

i really like it and i get out of marching my alto

Sam says:

well marching altos is gay so yeh

Sam says:

whats an alto?

Yes, I'm afraid the flagits are multiplying¤Kåîtl¥ñ¤ says:

an alto sax its what i play in band haha

Sam says:

nifty


im really bored.... yea so..... umm i really dont know

School starts on Thursday!  Its horrendous!!So I won`t be on
much...not like I`m on much anyway.  I`m gonna publish
some art somewhere...maybe I`ll show anyone here. hmm...
I wonder what the code to livejournal is because its so much cooler!

Ok so L> is ok and they have released him from the hospital.  THis is like really really super good bc they didnt think they were gonna release him until the end off the month.  Maggs is over at my house and shes sleeping right now sooo..... ya

Ok I only have a few minutes here... I met a really super great guy... and I really super like him... but he is 18 which is almost 5 years older than me!  Should I give up all hope? 


Next item... ya'll remember L> right?  Of course you do I never shut up about him... well he was in a pretty bad car accident a couple of fridays ago.  The first night they didn't think he would make it.  He lost control of his car and went headfirst into a tree.  The entire passenger side of the car was crushed in.  He was knocked unconsious, broke some ribs, and deflated his lung.  Later, his brain swelled and caused brain damage.  The doctors did not know how bad it would be but they feared that he would lose his short-term memory and never be able to learn again.  This Saturday he woke up and remembered that he was in a car accident.  He asked his mother what day it was.  She told him it was SAturday and he replied, "Good, that means I don't have to work today."  He then said that he need to call M> (you remember him don't you?)  He remembered the phone number and everything.  The doctors aren't sure if this is going to last or if he is going to go into the feared.  It might just be like blip where his mind just fired something off, or he could really be ok.  I hope and pray that he is ok.  I need you all to pray for him, too.  Thanx....

but I`m leaving next week for the beach...hoi-ya...lots of stuff goin' on!!